Land of the Dulldrums

That is just how I have been feeling lately. I am just sort of in a funk. I think there is just so much going on in our lives right now and with the pregnancy on top of that and the stress and worry over this new baby my mind just went into a fog. It is so hard to motivate myself to do anything all day.

I have an ultrasound on Friday to try and determine how far along we are in this pregnancy and I think that will make my mood better. At our last midwife appointment when I was supposedly 12 weeks we were not able to hear the heartbeat on the doppler and my uterus was not measuring 12 weeks. Which isn’t too alarming on its own since I didn’t feel like I was that far along anyway. I think I am closer to 8-9 weeks pregnant. However, last Friday I had some spotting and that was stressful. I have never spotted before in a pregnancy and even though it wasn’t red blood and they say it can be normal it has stressed me out since we haven’t heard the heartbeat yet. So, we’ll find out on Friday.

Mike’s parents are also most likely moving in with us at the end of June. One of them needs to find a job up here with health insurance and so that is what we are praying for right now.  It is also possible that Mike’s sister will be moving in with us in August. It may become a rather full house, but that is okay. The more the merrier. Right? :)

We’re also having a hard time being able to see Mikayla right now and that is frustrating. We haven’t been able to see her since April and she doesn’t even know we are pregnant yet. We’re supposed to have her this weekend so I am crossing my fingers that it all works out.

Honestly what is stressing me out the most is Garrett and this pregnancy. We just found out that Garrett has developed 2 new allergies in addition to the ones he all ready has. He is now also allergic to rice and sesame so all of his allergies include: wheat, dairy, egg, soy, peanut, sunflower, pea, sesame, rice and dog (he doesn’t eat dogs but if he gets licked by one he breaks out in hives).  So far we don’t have to take rice out of his diet (they want us to continue unless his reactions get bad) but I still cried the whole way home. Usually I’m a pretty good sport about his allergies but on Tuesday I definitely had a “why me???!!!” day. I am very worried that this next baby will also have extreme allergies like Garrett and it is frustrating beyond belief that no one can give me an answer on what to do/not do to prevent allergies in this next baby. And it is the same with Garrett, so far people can only tell us what he is allergic to and we have not been able to make any progress in healing his gut or reversing his allergies. I just pray that time will eventually heal his little body and that he will eventually be able to eat most foods. I am interested in visiting a local NAET specialist in Bellingham just to give it a try. Honestly, I’m very skeptical about this allergy elimination technique but at this point we’re willing to try anything. I’ve just got to come up with a way to pay for it since insurance won’t cover the treatments and unfortunately, they’re expensive. I am thinking of doing some fundraising this summer to raise money for a few trial treatments to see if it makes any kind of improvement.

Well, I think that is all for now. I can not wait for this fog to lift so that I actually feel like doing stuff. Right now I just want to sleep all day.

No More Diapers for Garrett

Well, it is now safe to say that Garrett is officially potty-trained for daytime. He’s been going diaper free during the day for the last two weeks or so (even at nap time) but I thought I’d wait awhile to post it here so as not to jinx myself. He is 21 months old. We are still using a diaper at night and he is peeing in those about 40% of the time and the other days he wakes up dry. I’d imagine within a few months or so he’ll be completely potty trained.

Overall, I really loved our E.C. (elimination communication) experience. I took a pretty laid back approach to it and decided we’d try it but that if it didn’t work out for us, no biggie. We had an expected set back around the 11-14 month range which I expected after watching the experiences of my friends. Most kids that are E.C’d go through a phase in which they want nothing to do with the potty because they’re figuring out their own independence, busy crawling/walking, etc. I just diapered him through that phase and waited and it worked out great.

Recently Garrett was potty trained during the day if he was naked (that’s been for the last several months) but he can now wear underwear and clothes and remember to take them off first before sitting on the potty. If he can’t get it off by himself (footie jammies for example) he will tell me he has to go “poo poo” or he will goo “psssss” which I think is absolutely hilarious since that is how we cued him with the “pssss” sound when he was an infant but I have not used that cue sound with him since he was six months or so. It amazes me that the cue sound is still in his memory. In fact, the whole E.C. thing in general is just amazing to me. The amount of control that Garrett has over his bladder and his awareness of it is just really impressive, not because he’s some magical kid or anything but just because we are taught that young children don’t have control or awareness over it when in fact, they do if we don’t teach them to ignore it at birth. Garrett can hold it for hours and hours and hours and he will even tell me while we’re driving in the car that he has to go potty and if I told him to wait for a minute, he can!

Anyway, it’s been a great experience and I’m happy we’ve done it. I realize it didn’t “officially” potty train him that much sooner than kids can potty train anyway but to me it made a world of difference in so many other areas and really he has been potty trained for a lot longer he’s just needed help with the aspects his fine motor skills couldn’t control yet.

I plan on taking the same E.C. approach with our next baby. We’ll give it a go and if it works great, if not no biggie. :)

Climbing Back on the Wagon

My cousin has pleaded with me to start blogging again. So, like I promised, here I am. :)

Part of the reason I stopped blogging is because I really just can’t find the time to do the research and write the articles that I used to write and that was my favorite part about blogging. Really, all I have time for these days is to do family updates and I didn’t figure anyone wanted to read about those or if they did, they could  catch up with us on Facebook. Nevertheless, I will try to do better at keeping this blog active. It was such a big part of my life for so long and I do miss it.

I will start first by announcing that we are expecting another baby! We are due late November or early December from what we’re able to tell. We will go in on the Wed, May 19th to try and listen for the baby’s heartbeat. I am currently 11 weeks along. The first trimester was a breeze. In fact, I had no idea I was pregnant until I was 9 weeks and took a pregnancy test. LOL. I didn’t really start having any symptoms until a few days after the test and didn’t start getting nausea until a few days ago so I’m not completely convinced that I am 11 weeks along. I think it is possible that my uterus is measuring large and that this will be a late December baby like Camden. I guess only time will tell.  I have started to “pop” however. Here is a picture I took today.

Camden was over the moon excited when we announced to her that we were going to have a baby. We told her at a family gathering for Mother’s Day and we let her be the one to announce it to both mine and Mike’s families. She is so excited to be a big sister again and is hoping for a sister.  We have also told Garrett that there is a baby in mommy’s tummy and he will point to my tummy throughout the day and say, “baby!” and then “baby, nee nee!” since we told him that when the baby is born the baby will nurse. At this point, Garrett is still nursing and as much as I’d like to wean him for my own sake with all of his allergies he is just not getting enough nutrition through food and nursing is still the best way to get him the nutrients he needs. I never intended on tandem nursing (in fact, I really don’t like the idea at all) but logically I can not think of a good reason not to since it is still very important that he nurse.

Here is a recent picture of me and the kids at the Tulip Festival. My friend Shilowe took this picture when she was in town visiting in early April. Turns out I was pregnant when she was here and didn’t have any idea. LOL.

I have finally purchased all of the items (well, except for the seeds) that we need for our garden and I’m really excited to get it all put together this weekend. This is our first garden. I decided to go with the square foot gardening method. Camden is really excited to plant some veggies and flowers and I’m looking forward to all of the yummy food.

Garrett has started sleeping in Camden’s room with her. Well, okay, let me rephrase. Garrett has started sleeping in the “kids” room since it is supposed to be both of their rooms and has been sleeping on the bottom bunk bed. I’ve weaned him from nursing at night and he is doing pretty good sleeping in there. It was his idea to sleep on the bunk bed. Sniff. Sniff. They grow up so quick. He is still waking up every 2-3 hours but that is mostly because I am having to retrain him on the no nursing at night thing since he recently had an illness and when he is sick we forget about the no nursing at night rule and he can nurse as much as he wants. I stop nursing him when he falls asleep (I nurse him to sleep) and then he doesn’t nurse again until the sun comes up since time is still obviously arbitrary to him. When we get back to the point of nursing in the morning I have been bringing him in bed with me because I can’t stand having to get up out of bed over and over. Seriously, how moms that don’t co-sleep cope the first year with all the night waking is beyond me. I dislike oh so very much getting out of bed when he wakes up and I can’t stand that panicky adrenaline rush when I am startled awake by his cry. It’s funny though, I am just surprised how ready he is to transition to his own bed. I was also shocked at how well he did nightweaning. I thought it was going to be a really hard process for him because of his personality. Anyone who has met him probably understands what I am referring to. Underneath that amazingly cute little smile of his is a whiny clingy mama’s boy. The good news is that he appears to be growing out of it. I knew that he would someday I just wasn’t sure if that someday was going to be in my lifetime. LOL.

Camden is getting so big too. It’s hard for me to imagine what it would be like to send her off to Kindergarten next fall to disappear for a full day of school. We are homeschooling her, however, so we won’t be doing that anyway but still to realize she will be that old soon is strange. Especially since it doesn’t seem like that long ago that I was pregnant with her. Camden is a beginning reader and read her very first book a month or so ago. It was called, “Stop the Tot!” She really seems to like reading but she does get easily frustrated if she makes a mistake and rather than just reading the particular word over she has to go back and read it from the start of the page and do it all over. Trust me, not my idea…all hers. She is somewhat of a perfectionist unless I’ve asked her to do something (like say, clean her room) and then she is a minimalist. :)

Well that is all I can think of for now.