Land of the Dulldrums

That is just how I have been feeling lately. I am just sort of in a funk. I think there is just so much going on in our lives right now and with the pregnancy on top of that and the stress and worry over this new baby my mind just went into a fog. It is so hard to motivate myself to do anything all day.

I have an ultrasound on Friday to try and determine how far along we are in this pregnancy and I think that will make my mood better. At our last midwife appointment when I was supposedly 12 weeks we were not able to hear the heartbeat on the doppler and my uterus was not measuring 12 weeks. Which isn’t too alarming on its own since I didn’t feel like I was that far along anyway. I think I am closer to 8-9 weeks pregnant. However, last Friday I had some spotting and that was stressful. I have never spotted before in a pregnancy and even though it wasn’t red blood and they say it can be normal it has stressed me out since we haven’t heard the heartbeat yet. So, we’ll find out on Friday.

Mike’s parents are also most likely moving in with us at the end of June. One of them needs to find a job up here with health insurance and so that is what we are praying for right now.  It is also possible that Mike’s sister will be moving in with us in August. It may become a rather full house, but that is okay. The more the merrier. Right? :)

We’re also having a hard time being able to see Mikayla right now and that is frustrating. We haven’t been able to see her since April and she doesn’t even know we are pregnant yet. We’re supposed to have her this weekend so I am crossing my fingers that it all works out.

Honestly what is stressing me out the most is Garrett and this pregnancy. We just found out that Garrett has developed 2 new allergies in addition to the ones he all ready has. He is now also allergic to rice and sesame so all of his allergies include: wheat, dairy, egg, soy, peanut, sunflower, pea, sesame, rice and dog (he doesn’t eat dogs but if he gets licked by one he breaks out in hives).  So far we don’t have to take rice out of his diet (they want us to continue unless his reactions get bad) but I still cried the whole way home. Usually I’m a pretty good sport about his allergies but on Tuesday I definitely had a “why me???!!!” day. I am very worried that this next baby will also have extreme allergies like Garrett and it is frustrating beyond belief that no one can give me an answer on what to do/not do to prevent allergies in this next baby. And it is the same with Garrett, so far people can only tell us what he is allergic to and we have not been able to make any progress in healing his gut or reversing his allergies. I just pray that time will eventually heal his little body and that he will eventually be able to eat most foods. I am interested in visiting a local NAET specialist in Bellingham just to give it a try. Honestly, I’m very skeptical about this allergy elimination technique but at this point we’re willing to try anything. I’ve just got to come up with a way to pay for it since insurance won’t cover the treatments and unfortunately, they’re expensive. I am thinking of doing some fundraising this summer to raise money for a few trial treatments to see if it makes any kind of improvement.

Well, I think that is all for now. I can not wait for this fog to lift so that I actually feel like doing stuff. Right now I just want to sleep all day.



  1. Jennifer · July 21, 2010

    Hope all is well. I see that this is an older poet…

    Don’t vaccinate. Did u know they use peanut oil,egg,etc in them? Plus the other toxins. You would need to have a waiver letter on hand at the hospital and don’t let baby out of your sight. They tend to “accidentally” do it.

    I use homeopathy for my allergies (seasonal) and my daughter’s. My daughter is sensitive to dairy and gets eczema from wheat. She is gluten/casein free.

    Good luck!

  2. Shauna · July 15, 2010

    So sorry you’re having such a difficult time! I think you’re right to be skeptical about the NAET diet. It was recommended for us to check out when we started having food issues, but while researching I found some studies they did on it. The NAET was pretty unreliable, even with two NAET practitioners diagnosing the same person, I believe it was about a 50/50 chance they’d diagnose the same foods. :-(

    Re: your doctor’s wanting to keep your son on rice, though? Have you seen the cookbook ‘Gluten free without rice?’ That one helped us (I react to rice, too).

    I had SO many problems with allergies after going gluten free, just a year ago, but I had a WONDERFUL doctor who has been helping me try to figure this out.
    I- actually, you know what, I’ll email you. See if there’s anything he told me that could help!!

  3. Idontknow · June 18, 2010

    Why haven’t you seen Mikayla? Is her mom not letting you?

  4. Brianne · May 27, 2010

    I’m so sorry that you’re having such a tough time right now.

    The new house was a blessing. If Ron, Jeanne, and Melanie will all be there, then hopefully you will have room for everyone. Plus, it should only be a few months, right??? Just keep telling yourself that ;-).

    Good luck with everything. I hope you guys get to see Mikayla this weekend.

  5. Bari · May 27, 2010

    You are such a great mom! When I was pregnant with our fourth, I took the HEALTHY TRINITY brand probiotics and I want to say that I think it really helped in the whole allergy thing .(near the end I took 3 of these a day and while nursing also).. YOu know already my older three have food allergies. So, that was a definate plus. Also, the first 2-3 days after the baby is born (when the passage of foods into the intentines is high), I know you will be especially careful about what you introduce. (I didn’t know this trick and had pizza!!! with my oldest, who is, you guessed it!, allergic to wheat and dairy). You are wonderful… and your baby is so lucky to have you…

  6. avymom · May 27, 2010

    Hi, I happen to come acroos your blog and realized we share something more similar than a 20 months old. My son, who is 20.5 months, is allergic to milk, soy, egg, peanuts, chickpea, lima beans, peas etc. He is able to tolerate rice and wheat very well. As a fellow mom I completelty understand what you are going through…there are days when I feel this will never end, and having another baby scares the wits of out me. I would like to say hang in there and hopefully these lovely darling would outgrow them soon. I blog at
    I would like to keep in touch and talk about the various recipes, and other tips to manage a kid with these allergies.

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